Monday, January 30, 2012

Every day

I don't know if it is the law of diminishing return at work or just getting a little case of "senioritis" toward my military career, but...

Every day I get a little less satisfaction than the day before.

Every day I miss my friends and family from home just a little bit more.

Every day I have less tolerance for the immaturity of the next generation of Airmen that show up.

Every day I feel more distance between myself and my friends here.

Every day I long for a phone call from a civilian employer.

Every day I wake up with less energy than the prior morning.

Every day I measure my worth as a professional against my pay with increased disappointment.

Every day I stare, just a little longer, at the voluntary separation button my computer.

Every day I breathe a sigh of exhaustion before leaving for work - just a little heavier.

Every day I remind myself of all the good brought into my life by all these years in the military.

Every day I don the uniform and dig down deep for the pride that should automatically come with it.

Every day I want nothing more than to wake up, look around and say, "I'm truly at home."

Every day I count the days until I can say that.

Every day I do what I promised because I promised I would. I took an oath.

One day I will do what I do because I love it, I'm rewarded for it, I'm compensated appropriately and it'll all happen while surrounded by those most important to me.

Today is not that day.

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