Saturday, December 04, 2010

Potential

It seems major upheavals bring out the blogger in most people. Everyone wants to eviscerate their enemies with a pen (not literally, of course. That would just be gross). Rarely do we find topics of hope or... potential. In electronic/electrical industries we talk about potential to determine different electrical properties of metals, for example. In life we define potential as a perceived future value of something. Its ability to develop into something with time. Many times we don't know what will be, but we see potential for something terrific.

I have to tell you that lately my life has been on a tremendous upswing. I cut out the deadweight and drama by getting rid of the wife. That tied up fairly smoothly and I'm not really worse for the wear. I think we can all agree that parting ways was, by far, the best decision. Another life lesson - with take-aways to be used as we grow.

I'm still plugging along at school and knocking that out as best as I can, although this history class may prove to be something of a challenge. I have a hard time being invested in the re-Stalinization of Soviet Russia. Progress is progress and I suppose this will help shape me as a person.

I got a bit of a bump at the job. I'm not making any more money and my only real compensation is more work and responsibility - at least on the tangible side. Beyond that, it is a wonderful opportunity for personal and professional growth.

After a year of being here and the dust from the divorce settling down, I have been fortunate enough to have my friends clearly outlined for me. Some old friends, some new friends - I have found who is important during an important time.

None of that is what I'm here to tell you about though. I wanted to talk about potential. Those are all good things. Those have all been proven. What else is there that is new and possibly good? Where is the potential?

A couple of months ago I met someone through my friends. She was just another friend. We would all hang out and have a blast together. Sure, I thought she was quite attractive right from jump street but didn't think much of it beyond that. As time went on, I'd have my curiosity piqued at certain points but for one reason or another, I would always disregard.

One week ago, on Thanksgiving we were all together. We cooked, we ate, we drank. We conversed and played games. The night began to wind down. As energy was sapped, either from partying or tryptophan we both took up residence on alternative parts of our friends' "L" shaped couch. As we sleepily chatted, something happened. There was this connection that you only hear about or see Hollywood-ized in Meg Ryan movies. Not only did I feel it, but she felt it and you know what... each knew for a fact that the other felt it. It wasn't spoken about at the time, but we knew.

Over the subsequent days, we've been in contact often. By often, I mean nearly nonstop. We text when we can't talk. We talk when we can. Hours zip by without realization. We talk about real things. We talk about nonsense. We laugh. We laugh a lot. There's never been a dull moment in our friendship and there's not one now in our... whatever this is right now... exploratory time, perhaps?

I love that she has a head for business - she loves finance (how perfect is that for me?) I love that she'll crack up hysterical when I wax intellectual about about why I don't eat living things like yogurt or how waffle fries are better because the waffles hold more ketchup. She doesn't flinch when I make up words on the spot because they fit in context and make me laugh. And then we somehow effortlessly segue into deep talk about fears and goals. Even when this transpires over text message or phone, it's like I'm there. I know her face when she laughs so well that I can see it even when I can't see it.

Could this be the novelty of something new? Possibly. Could it be someone that proves to be an awesome friend but doesn't go deeper? I suppose so. Could this be something amazing? Also plausible.

That is why we talk about potential. I have no crystal ball. If I did, I'd be on a beach somewhere laughing at the morons who missed 100 different IPOs or maybe I'd have created Google or the iPhone. I don't know what the future holds. But I know when to recognize potential and invest in it. To foster and nurture it and see just how it grows.

As I said earlier, potential is not only a measurement of how far we believe something will go. It is a comparison between to similar objects. When two metals, for instance, have the same potential, it is a match. There is no impedance between them. Impedance is also known as resistance.

I have no idea where Kimber and I will be in a year, a month or even a week. I do, however, know that our potential means I'm prepared to find out.

1 comment:

Tre ~ (@tresha) said...

so honest, so real, so owning your moments and hopes and the right now....you're seeing that we sculpt our now...:) beautiful. happy for you both.