Monday, July 14, 2008


Everything costs so much damn money. Growing up is really starting to get on my nerves. I've about had it with funding my life at this point. It just never seems to end. Thankfully, I'm in a position where I can, fairly easily, cut checks for each thing. I've hit points where my cash flow was pretty low but those are isolated cases. Usually it's due to a large outpouring of cash in instances back to back that are unprecedented and unplanned and it's usually combined with the inability to move money into my daily account on time. Sometimes it has to do with not getting the "ok" from the financial manager. It's his job to make money for me; not let me spend too much so he's tight with my "allowance," plus he takes a percentage of what he makes me so you do the math.

The point here is that I remember, vaguely, the days where my biggest plan was scraping together $15 for the new CD or going to the movies. Needing 50 bucks was a special event. Now, everything is in the hundreds, or thousands and it's starting to irritate me.

New iPhone was $300 earlier in the weekend. I don't need it, per se, but anyone who knows me will know that in a way I do need it. Technology is my bread and butter and it pays my bills. Staying on top of things is important to me, as a person and important to my career. And these days I can honestly say, "Well, it's only $300."

Then I bought a new laptop. Again, I don't need it now but it's a future plan. Next year I leave the military so I have to be prepared for life outside of the Air Force. We all know that photography is going to play a major part in my life whether I do it as a career, a side business or as a hobby only, it's a big passion of mine and will be in my life no matter what. So I had to make the switch from MS Windows to Apple/Macintosh. My new MacBook Pro cost me a whopping 2 thousand dollars yesterday. No big deal. I got a good price on it and I'll get more than 2 grand worth of use out of it.

Today my external hard drive, where I store all my pertinent information such as documents, accounting information, customer invoices, etc decided to shit the bed on me. I absolutely NEED that information no matter what. So I called different data recovery services. And they each told me the same story on what went wrong and what it would take to fix it; and all quoted me the same price estimates at about $1800. Can I ignore it? Nope, sure can't. That's very important to me. So now I have to shell that money out next.

That puts me at 4 grand total for all this. Let's not even discuss the minor fixes the car needs and a 90k mile checkup because that's several hundred more dollars.

I should say to hell with it all, use the cash to invent a time machine and travel back to simpler days. Oh well. I guess it's my own fault. If I never had money, I wouldn't have expensive stuff and expensive hobbies and not need as much money. The more you have, the more you spend.

I'm not complaining when you get right down to it because I'm fortunate enough to have the cash to spend and I'm thankful that the Universe provided for me. It just seems that things pile up all at once and it gets frustrating that it's ALOT of things each for ALOT of money at the same time. It will all be worth it when I'm making money in a few weeks designing the new application for the new iPhone on my new Mac notebook.

Just having a little buyer's remorse for the moment. Besides, it's only money and you can't take it with you, right?

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