Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Isn’t it a relief?

No, I'm not going on a rant this time. Sorry to disappoint you all. I can imagine how much you all love to hear me bitch about the goofy parts of life.

I was looking at the blog counter and saw that I have over 100 total reads on the 2 blogs that have been posted thus far. I started to think about writing them. They weren't totally premeditated. I mean, it's not like they just happened or I ranted ad nauseum. I did put thought into them, but at the same time they were both fairly reactionary (especially the 2nd one). I had a feeling, saw the laptop and kinda vomited my thoughts into a blog. They are raw and unedited and basically 2 counts of pure freewriting.

So here is the point... why blog? What is it about making a weblog that is so... "freeing" of an act? It's not like I'm on AOL and hiding behind a screen name. I have my name and pictures up there which really kills anonymity. Its not like I'm talking to a support group of people that all share common experiences. I'm airing my dirty laundry publicly for the world to see. Why does that feel good?

Is it just the act of unburdening oneself of emotional issues? The purging of ulcer causing feelings similarly to emptying too much alcohol maybe. Still feel shitty but just a little less shitty if you can empty some of the toxins. I think that may be part of it.

For me, I think it's also about having a captive audience in a way. I have a propensity toward being a purveyor of verbose and lengthy diatribes - I did that on purpose . Basically, I enjoy hearing myself speak. I may be the only one, I don't know. But by blogging I can, and will, go on and on whether you want me to or not. I get lots of reads too. Of course, it doesn't say if they're full or partial reads. I wonder how many people click and see the length and say "fuck that, this guy never shuts up" and how many are nailed to the couch reading them in their entirety. I'll never know. It's not important either.

Anyway, I don't ask for responses to my blogs. I generally put them there because myspace is about me - it's MY space. You have yours, I have mine. So I figure I should vent and let people see what I have to say if they want to know about me. This time, however, I'm curious to see what people have to say. If you have an input or a thought on the matter, feel free to post it. I'd be curious to see what everyone thinks. "Blogging" is such a big deal these days.

Maybe it's the ability given to each person to have their own little corner of the tangled world wide web that's been woven. Maybe it's a simple outlet for everyone's own creativity. Sometimes I even sit and think "Do I have anything to blog about?" Most times I don't. Plus I don't want to "over-blog" everyone to death.

Well, it was just a thought that made it's way out of the circus I call my brain so I figured what better place to ask about blogging... than a blog?

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